OK! Moment of truth. I feel sad, I feel let down, I feel tired, I feel extremely old, I feel lost and I feel alone. There! I said it.
Because I have stopped working out. I tried very, very hard to keep up especially fought a really hard battle at the gym last week and then came down really hard like a fighter. I did fight. I did not NOT fight.I know that I really tried my level best.
I wanted December to be the month where I peaked. But I only clucked out. I practically fell out of the gym. I feel like a Capital Loser. Big L.
I don't want anyone to tell me no one's a loser, everyone's a winner, been there done all that. I know how much failure I have seen in my life so let's not even get into that.
It's my will power. It's so shallow. You need so much courage to have that kind of will power. Seriously, hats off to the people who reach their goals hard and strong. They really deserve their win.
I am disappointed, very fatigued and so SORE. Everything hurts, every cell feels tired and I can't get enough of sleeping.
I did everything I had to do. Ate well, drank lots of water, tried out lots of tips from my trainers,friends and various sources. My body will not budge. Now I also have a piriformis injury and sciatica of my left leg to boot which has never happened to me in my life before.
I am not complaining, I am just saying I seem not to be getting something right.
I just can't pin that down.
How can one feel so heavy when they are trying to feel light and good about themselves?
Anyway, I really had to get that off my chest. I do not want to show anyone how great guns I've been going. I have fallen and HARD.
Now I'm back to being FAT and FUGLY.
Peace out!
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