The NO X-rcise Update!
OK! Moment of truth. I feel sad, I feel let down, I feel tired, I feel extremely old, I feel lost and I feel alone. There! I said it.
Because I have stopped working out. I tried very, very hard to keep up especially fought a really hard battle at the gym last week and then came down really hard like a fighter. I did fight. I did not NOT fight.I know that I really tried my level best.
I wanted December to be the month where I peaked. But I only clucked out. I practically fell out of the gym. I feel like a Capital Loser. Big L.
I don't want anyone to tell me no one's a loser, everyone's a winner, been there done all that. I know how much failure I have seen in my life so let's not even get into that.
It's my will power. It's so shallow. You need so much courage to have that kind of will power. Seriously, hats off to the people who reach their goals hard and strong. They really deserve their win.
I am disappointed, very fatigued and so SORE. Everything hurts, every cell feels tired and I can't get enough of sleeping.
I did everything I had to do. Ate well, drank lots of water, tried out lots of tips from my trainers,friends and various sources. My body will not budge. Now I also have a piriformis injury and sciatica of my left leg to boot which has never happened to me in my life before.
I am not complaining, I am just saying I seem not to be getting something right.
I just can't pin that down.
How can one feel so heavy when they are trying to feel light and good about themselves?
Anyway, I really had to get that off my chest. I do not want to show anyone how great guns I've been going. I have fallen and HARD.
Now I'm back to being FAT and FUGLY.
Peace out!
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What happend Dear :( Coral take care
ReplyDeleteHi Dear, was getting tired and didn't know what to do.
DeleteWHAT IS THIS ?
ReplyDeleteI wasn't going to comment but i can feel the sadness in your words..
I think we can talk via email ? what say ?
I started gymming after reading an old post of yours, so I can't see you feel like this.
always remember..punishing is not the key,,enjoying is,, there's a fine line between push and punish in workout, If your body is not ready for so much of strain then be it, try next year,,
you have been working out for long I believe, fatigue is a huge part of weight loss,,i have slowly came out of that phase..
really would love to talk to you in detail. If you feel like please mail me :) we can share a word or two :) and please FUGLY!!! please never use it for urself or for anyone else.. why write such a bad word? what for ? just because you couldnt get results ? I think you will remove that word in a day or two,,maybe right now you are too angry.. so please chill..
take care sweetheart :) hugs :)
Namita, so good to hear from you. Yes, I just slipped into some negative space of mind because of physical exhaustion. Don't think I am doing well energy wise. And so am on a break from the gym for now.
Deletethank you for your kind concern and all the tips.
FUGLY lol yeah I am so good at bashing myself at times, even I can't believe the things I feel at times.
I was punishing myself, waiting to drop each and every kilo, so when the weighing scale did not equal my motivation, I guess I just lost it. Plus it's such hard work....anyway, it's all about hard work, right :)
Thank you so much. hugs
Don't worry dear. You know every one has there own ups and downs in life.
ReplyDeleteEverything would be fine. Not everyone is a winner in everything they do. no problem, if it does not happen this month it will happen next month.
You are such a sweet person with a beautiful heart.
thank you so much for all your encouragement, Niesha. You are definitely one of the nicest people I know in here :) Yes, I just needed a small break I guess. Will start working out again soon. thank you so much, dear :)
DeleteHey cmon yar don't feel down! And yes every1 is a winner :) u tried and tat is sumthin :) I have tried to lose weight b4..went on a crash diet and ended with peptic ulcer.Am sufferin for d past 4 yrs and It is not tamin down.And I didn lose wgt then.I have tried numerous tyms to lose wgt.But everytym I failed.But evry1 has moments of success :) And i knw ur moment is near ;) Just don't give up.Take care of ur health and injuries and once u feel u can wrkout do it :) Just don't overtrain urself.And don't get disheartened please :( Results differ with ppl and d only thing u can do is Keep wrkin on it :) u r responsible for ur health and not just gr8 body.
ReplyDeleteAnd it is a gud sign that u feel gr8 and lighter :) plz don't let it go! And mail me if u feel d need to talk to sum1 :) Cuz I can empathize totally wit u.
Take care :)
Dear Raaga, thank you for all the encouragement you have given me and opened up about your personal weight loss journey too. Truly sorry to hear about your peptic ulcer, it sounds really bad. I guess crash dieting is never an option.
DeleteTrue, health is very important...very , very!
Thank you for talking to me :) tc
Coral!!... Don't feel so low... Sometimes I go through the same too.. It's a phase.. Keep going on doing what you are doing now (not the being sad part hun) and things will work out... Everything is gonna be OK... Don't worry!... Gotta vent, just email me!.. We will talk it over dear :)
ReplyDeleteKeep smiling!
Naz
Dear Naznin, thank you for your positivity and kindness. I am just glad I have such great friends in here who have my back :) thanks, will mail you if I need to vent :)
DeleteCoral!!... Don't feel so low... Sometimes I go through the same too.. It's a phase.. Keep going on doing what you are doing now (not the being sad part hun) and things will work out... Everything is gonna be OK... Don't worry!... Gotta vent, just email me!.. We will talk it over dear :)
ReplyDeleteKeep smiling!
Naz